HOLY SHIT.
the last week ive had a horrible dreading feeling.
like im a boat on a lake that's gone still.
no wind.
no ripple to speak of.
nothing in the sails.

i cant ignore my heart, telling me that i am destined to achieve simply amazing, astonishing things in this lifetime, i only just dont know exactly how to arrive at these places, to get to these things.

its shitty and its all about me. i take full responsibility for not pursuing avenues, for just sinking into this hole.

i need a change, and a shift. and i know i can make it happen, if i just keep my eyes open for it.
theres so much going on in the world, and its all rushing past me, and at times, like right now, its unbearable, this feeling.